Enlightenment

my fren had this sudden "light bulb" moment while chatting with me the other day
today, the same thing happened to me, i was enlighten!

its been how many years now...? 3? 4? since ive been back from NZ.
until this day, i still miss my days back in auckland
the feeling is simply indescripable, its like missing another part of me
i always long to go back, but i could not explain y the feeling exists...

i always tot, its because i was a better person back there n then...
well, tht could be one of the reasons...
but today i realise, its because of the unfinished business i had over there...

i just finished my high school
Auckland U accepted me, i was looking forward to it...
frenship had just begin to blossom, i made plans...
ive just gotten to familiarise with the places and lifestyle, i was just adapting...
at the point of time we havent decided if we were going back or not, i left everything n everyone hanging...even myself...

now tht ive had my moment of enlightenment
ive decided to put the past in the past
i cant turn back time, nor shud i keep looking back
whatever will be will be
if can go back n start all over again, it would be great
otherwise, life goes on, n i believe it will still be beautiful...

thanks doinkie!